Disappointed

I am really cross with myself today, well not so much today but I was last night. I was so excited about class and possibly showing off my secret project and seeing my new friends and when I got there I totally froze up. Could barely utter a word with fright. Just about said hello to people and that was it. It made me sad that I let myself do it but I just couldn't help it. We had a different teacher too as Irma was away. I got all my work back that I handed in and it was all good. She set me a task to write her a script about my dog, so I did that but was even too shy at the end to hand in this weeks homework and that assignment to the substitute teacher so left, still clutching it all!

Ridiculous.

I had even thought about maybe inviting the friends I made last week over this weekend for beers or fika but clearly that didn't happen. Oh well. Maybe I will do better next week but for now I am just really disappointed.

The teachers seem a bit stumped by me too, clearly my written work and comprehension is really good and I have been flying through the written chapters and homework I have been given but I might as well be mute! My spoken Swedish and listening comprehension is nowhere near as good as my written work but if I won't open my mouth it won't get any better. Sandra, bless her, is going to speak more Swedish with me, she started today off just talking Swedish which was excellent but difficult for her. I will try harder, all I can do is keep trying, makes it hard when all I want to do is cry when I have to do it though!

Well, nobody said this was easy...hmm I am sure that is a song lyric! Hej då!